expectations

am i expecting too much? i really dunno man... sigh...
I just wanna do something different.. issit so tough? sigh...

counting down to sept.... i hope he keeps his words... >< I'm sick of being stuck in meetings which i dun understand a single thing...

maybe i should just bochup n let client chase me back.. -_-"

dark

I know that the world is dark... alot of "unclean" activities.. but.. i didn't expect it to be so "dark".... sighhh

will i be able to believe in myself? or will i get lost?

maybe i'm just pms-y.....

y do i feel more comfortable with vendor consultants.. cp my own fellow colleagues? why...?