How i wish...

I wish i have the ability to read what's on other people's mind... So that i can understand the viewpoint that they so persistently held onto...

It's not that i'm blinded by my own views... but i just wanna know what's going through their heads? What train of thoughts they have running thru their brain which lead to the conclusion.... What was on their mind?!!! what the heck?! how can someone be so cruel? so heartless? so feelingless?

Isn't that just too rational that it becomes scary?

I should study psychology....

Breather

Finally cleared 3 papers in 2 days... can take a breather le..

things were pretty ok for the first 2 papers. though not excellent but should be able to make a decent grade... i hope...

but screwed up the paper today..... sighhhh i dunno what's wrong with me.... my brain dun seems to be able to recall what i need to.... i really think i screwed up.. i could have done well for the paper!!! IF i dun have 2 papers on Monday :( i didn't have sufficient preparation for it... coz i was a little complacent and i revised on the day of my full blown flu... didn't get much things into my head today....

think i'm ultimatedly stressed out today... after the paper... i hate myself!! it's so easy!! :( yet i cannot do well :( but well... look on the bright side... a lot of people also never prepare well enuff.... so i shall pray hard :(

shall not let tt repeat in cs2105!!!!!!

sighhhh expected to do pretty well for all modules this sem...... SIGHHHHHHHHHH doubt it's possible

today is a BAD* day :(

*there's a lot more happening today but i dun feel like writing it out... can only conclude one statement:
~最深爱的,人伤最深~

Full blown flu...

Thought i'll just leave a short entry for those who are taking a break from studying...

Yes.... i'm "officially" sick le.... been having a sore throat since monday... tuesday got pretty bad and decided to see a doc today morning...

This morning woke up with a blocked nose n felt rather drowsy... needless to say.. i lost my voice... i can barely talk coz it hurts so much.... got to the clinic got a queue number... 16. To make things worse... it was only at queue number 3!! argghhh.... bo bian then... studied 3265 while waiting lor.... in the end reached school at almost 11 :P by then... tata, koko n dardar already there le :P

I took the medicine after lunch but it didn't seem to relieve me of much pain.. so i decided to take the cough syrup (which will cause drowsiness) i felt much much better... but it's hard battling not to sleep while having the drowy effect frm the medicine n the BORING content of 65.... :P ok ok i K.O. twice k?

Decided not to stay in school to study till 9 plus... so went home earlier to rest :P

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Just a sidetrack... to talk about chocolate fondue!

haha... it's definitely yummy!! but i didn't eat much coz of my sorethroat...

sis bought the fruits (banna n strawberry) as well as the chocoloate :D woah... it's havenly!! but the chocolate is not cheap n pretty hard to find also :P it's so cute seeing the chocolate in the fondue pot... must borrow the pot frm sis next time and try doing fondue the next time we have chalet k?! haha.. but maybe replace the chocolate with chocolate chip instead :P banana match well with chocolate!!!!

ARGHh!

Sighhh one week has past n i've barely studied much... someone save mEEEE!!!!!

Hmmm juz an update on the stuff this week..

Dardar submitted his proj on mon... n mon i also went to send jingwei off in the morning.... d**n sad morning...

Let's talk abt happier stuffs...

Tues went out with dear after my lesson (which ends at 5pm) n we had dinner at NYDC n played pool! haven't played pool for ages. Thanks dear! :D you really brightened up my day...

Nothing much on wed n thurs... then came today...

Was really upset that 2105 no longer have the scaling system.... it really really shooked me badly... i need the system badly!!!!!! i'm gonna fail!!! no i cannot think like tt.. like tt i'll definitely fail... i must jia you!!!!!!!!!! i definitely can do it one... well... i least i understand what's gg on during classes... unlike other ple :P

Went for wilson house for lesson..... was really in a hurry so walked really fast in my heel n now i'm suffering from big painful blisters... *Sobs**Sobs*... but i had a fun time there :P haha... listening to deardear qing1 chang2 muahahahaha :P shan't reveal too much here.... Wilson help us both choose 2 songs for the hark audition :) heee.. so it's decided i'm singing flyaway (by fish leong) n wo bu nan guo.... suddenly realised... KOKO! they are both your fave songS/ MTV!!!!! :)

hee.. decided liao can practise when free le lor....

I really need to get down to studying... my pace is too slooow... maybe coz i complacent la... first sem i'm not lost in the modules lecture... :P

What's the purpose of life?

Life is so fragile... i've just attended my very first friend's funeral.... very very sad... although we were not very close... but i can't help feeling sad...

He's not even 21 yet... at this point of time... everyone's celebrating their 21st birthday... getting their friends altogether... but this time... it's for the last time we'll get together...

His mum must be heartbroken...

This is my very first church furneral service (i'm not going to promote christanity) but i quite like the idea of it....

Using music to smooth the emotions... finding condolences in the fact that the deceased has gone to another better world....

Although we may never know how true it is... till we experience for ourselves... it does make one feel better if we can think that the loved ones are now in a better world... gone for the better....
It provides one with the emotional strength to face the cruel fact.... using music also make one feel more light-hearted..... n everything is kept simple

I begin to ponder... what's life... why are we doing all these? what happens after we die?

Life is so unpredictable... u know how life is formed... but no idea how it ends.... lotsa question on my mind... but i know there'll be no answer till the day arrives..

Meanwhile.. i just want to cherish single day i have.... everyone around me... do things such that i'll have no regrets (at least minimise it)

i was wondering what was on his thought when the accident happened? perhaps he didn't even get a chance to feel anything...

sighhh this was 4J's very first gathering after so many years of graduation.... so sad to meet in such a situation... I'll pray that his mum and family has the strength to carry on.... tmr going to send him off for the very last time

I still can't believe he's no longer around.....

L.O.V.E

Mummy once told me that a women should record down when men promised to stay faithful and love and take care of you forever and let them listen to it occassionally... Coz they are the forgetful one....

I laughed at that.. i thought if men were to "forget" it... no matter how often u remind them.. they'll still forget...

Today.. i've concluded my decision that men are forgetful....

Men are always busy (as though we gals got have got nothing better to do like tt)
Give them the space... but sometimes u wonder how come despite them being so busy.. they've got time for soccer n games or hang out with their friends...
Quality time with their loved ones doesn't not mean much to them
With or without it doesn't make any difference...

But do u guys know all we gals need is just some quality time to know tt we are still in ur heart... just a tiny reassurance... is it that difficult? Take a second off your precious time and send us an sms to ask if we had our meal... is it that difficult? Is the only topic work??

U had a hard time in work... fine... u can always talk to us abt it...(we'll be very glad to do so!)
Y vent ur frustrations on us?! We also have our own prob... did tt thought ever occur to u?

If you guys can be so nonchalent abt spending quality time with us... then y bother to let us in ur life in the first place?

Busy.... busy... busy.... all u can remember is ur work... when was the last time u had a good look at her? held her in your arms and look lovingly into her eyes? experience fear that she might one day leave u? perhaps after being together for a long period you feel that she would never leave...

Well guys... just let me tell you... drive her into the wall and she's HIGHLY capable of that! Don't come crying to me that u regret it... coz you are the one who made her do that! Don't think you can always find another girl coz you can never find another girl like her ever again!Please don't take her for granted!!!

You think she's stupid? yeah let me tell u.. she's stupid that's y she's with u!!!!!

We girls prefer to solve a issue instead of avoiding them like what u guys do! We'll wanna talk to you and resolve it... and not that we wanna keep harping on the issue after u've apologize... coz tt wun solve the problem... the same issue will keep reappearing... and the cycle continues...
And stop arghing and distort the picture such that it sounds like the fault lies in us... Do some self reflection and stop harping on ur ego!

I always thought that one should treasure fate... treasure the chance to meet your loved one... but apparently not many people treasure it... tt's just simple discouraging...

I need faith... i need someone to tell me that true love does exist... love CAN last for a lifetime...

She showed me that there is true love... taught me that it's about 2 people working together to make things work......

But now.. she also showed me the other side.... n fear is creeping back... the past is haunting again

She told me that there's no point dating for a long period of time.... IF he only treated u okay during courtship.... dun expect anything better from him after marriage...

Ya i supposed to many guys... after marriage means that there's no more effort needed to put into the relationship...

I need someone to show me that IT can be done.... people around me seems to show me the otherwise........

how can i hold onto that believe?

Perhaps handphone doesn't connect people.... it further enhances the distance between hps... no hp implies girls will not expect their loved ones to call or sms them. no handphone means no dissapointment when u check your handphone and saw NOTHING from your loved one for the ENTIRE day.... no handphone means no anxiety when u cannot reach him on his hp(esp if he has 2)... worrying what has happened to him...

Why bother to land yourself into such state? What does love really mean? What does marriage mean?

I thought it's hard to find someone you love. Now i realised it's even harder to maintain the relationship....
In comparison... it's seems easier to find someone to just accompany you for a period of time.. when the sparks no longer exist, you'll just have to change another partner...

It's not worth sacrificing friends over love... Always treasure your friends and family. They are the only ones who will always by ur side no matter what happens to you.... No point putting men as ur priority.....

Dead...

heh... got pretty sianz of doing my tutorial so i came to my blog to leave some notes :P

guess my blog's pretty dead lately... nothing much happening to me u see... except exams exams exams ... which i dun really wanna talk abt it much... considering most of my time revolves around it... but ironically... that's the only thing i can talk about... argggh!!

Hehe... went to joelle's bday celebration on last saturday.. nice atmosphere :) feel happier then gg to shiya's one... i think it's because majority of the clique is there ba.... BUT, it's held at sengkang... so i had to spend 1.5 hr going there n another 1 hr going home.. :P thank god got haojie to keep me company :D otherwise i'll sure die before i reach there :P

heeeeeee so happy that there's a new system for cs2105 ( oppz talking abt schoolwork again) hehe... which means i stand a chance to revive the screwed up midterm.. this time round i'm not going to be super nervous n stressed out le... i'm going to take it at my stride.. :D treat it like my any other paper :)

sian..... nothing to look forward to... except after exams... any job lobangs must jio me oh!
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