**stargazing**

Monday, January 31, 2011

i hate myself

well the title pretty much explains it all...

i've said before how people around us affect us... it includes negatively..

some things lately has forced me to face some things which i haven't been...

i've been trying very hard to overcome.. but i just can't :( WTH

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Old already

It's funny how my point of view changed over time....
Last time, i used to think if I ever get betrayed I will never forgive. But recent years my point of view changed. I begin to understand why some people choose to forgive.

Maybe that comes w old age I guess hahaha.

好心痛你

It takes years n months to build up trust. But it's fragile and can easily broken in mins or seconds.

Cheap thrill has it's own consequence. Is it worth to jeopardize the trust that is so painstakingly build up.
Love is a gamble u never know how things will turn out. But we cannot avoid it altogether.
However 己所不裕,勿施于人 is a simple philosophy.

I pray that u have the strength to overcome in ur path.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

What makes u ticks?

Had a discussion with ry on how many people just got stuck in the stereotype.. Less adventurous. Nothing bad abt it. Just that this formula doesn't work for us. Haha

Indeed cos work takes up a big bulk of our time so we gradually form our identity around our jobs and our income / earning power. Money is important, without it alot cannot be accomplished. However, that's not who we are! We need to find out what we need socially, mentally etc.

I'm very thankful that I get to encounter many different people in different stage of my life and very often provides me a different perspective that broadens my sights.

I'm not trying to be different or preach others. But I always believe in keeping an open mind. How do you know what u can excel in? You will have to try out before you know right? It seems like as we grow older, we lost the courage to try out new things and explore our own limits. Like I always believe, there are many possibilities out there, it's just whether we encounter/expose to them or not.

This is a reminder to myself, always have the courage to explore boundaries and always have time with own self to not lose sight of myself. Many assumed the role of wife and forget own self, assume role of mother and forget role of wife. When u grow old, you realize U r totally lost. I might be idealistic and everyone most probably say it's impossible. But I would still wanna try. :)

Just some thoughts.

So it's not by chance!

Well.. my hard work and lunch study breaks does returns! Managed to squeeze another distinction for my 2nd module! hope i can continue to keep up the standard..
Like what was mentioned in the movie 3 idiots.. i guess there is a great difference between learning for grades and learning for knowledge.. in uni it was the former and now it's the latter.. which perhaps explains why the difference... haha

anyway.. today is another happy day! Yums...

Monday, December 13, 2010

Most blissful december ~ 2010

Well... This is indeed the best december so far! haha
Plenty of happy news around :) including myself :)

Really happy with my job.
Finally received the ring on 11-12-10.
Holiday plans to Australia!

What more can i ask for in life? :D

Thankful for all the love i've received from those around me.
Have a bless and lovely Christmas to everyone!

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Happiness

I'm happy. I'm contented. I like my job so far. The environment is cosy.
I'm happy to be back home where all my loved ones are with me.
I'm happy koko is now mrs Ong legally and she has found someone who treasures her n is worthy of her love
I'm happy Tracy is officially engaged
I'm happy that haohao has safely arrived to our world
So many happy news. What more can I ask for?

I'm a happy girl! Of which, the happy girl has disappeared for a long time.

Welcome home happy girl!

Friday, September 24, 2010

有的必有失

在这段期间,我认识了好人与坏人。看得更清楚了。
真真假假,在这一瞬间,模糊了。也不重要了。
今晚,是在这里的最后一晚。
我只想做我自己。简简单单。这阵子,我真的似乎迷失了自己。
或许,这是一件好事。
是时候找回自己。

我的出现,本来只是一个过客。
帮我的人,谢谢你了。我会永远记得你们的恩惠。
其他的人,我不记得也不用记得。我只是个过客。

晚安了。

Saturday, September 11, 2010

warm fuzzy feeling

it's such a pity... i'm leaving here soon... but i'm very thankful for the nice people who've crossed my path.
Especially today.
Coincidentally met the ibm pm today. I always felt he's a nice chap :) and in work.. i usually agree with him more than my own pm.. but i have to zip my mouth because of obvious reasons.
i always felt guilty towards him... cos what my company did to his company. but that's beyond me.
really very nice fellow, gave me many survival tips in bkk.. too bad it came too late.
knowing that i'm staying in bkk this weekend, he even lent me his jap restaurant discount card.. muahahhaa
but i'm still thankful that our paths have crossed. fellow singaporean.

Got the moody's vendor invitation for dinner at one of their apt...
was hesitant going becos it was raining
but i am extremely glad that i went
it was great company :)
had fun with a really chirpy 4 yr old girl
nice time chatting till 1am with the peeps.

one of them said i was happier back in my prev coy. i guess alot of people noticed that too. it's not a positive sign. n apparent.. its not entirely due to myself too.

I guess some things we can't change.
I'm leaving cos of the mean people... but i'm still thankful for the nice people who given me the warmth during the cold n harsh period.
I'm receiving lotsa supportive people of my decision.
Apparently i was mixing with the wrong crowd.
So it's now time to fix that up.

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

who are ur friends

i've done it.. yes and i'm getting various response.
friends - i support ur decision, things will be better. it's a wise decision.
non-friends - oh, so who's going to cover you? wait till bonus then leave lah. so you'll be doing xxx and yyy before you leave right?

how straightforward.

i'm grateful to those who gave me the support and confidence that i should make the move.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

chances

what are the chances of getting the position 1 want?? I've sent in 2-3 applications... I hope i get at least a chance for an interview... :S

pray hard for me..

Monday, July 19, 2010

expectations

am i expecting too much? i really dunno man... sigh...
I just wanna do something different.. issit so tough? sigh...

counting down to sept.... i hope he keeps his words... >< I'm sick of being stuck in meetings which i dun understand a single thing...

maybe i should just bochup n let client chase me back.. -_-"