learning

we'll i supposed life is all about learning... learning new things, learning knowledge, learning about people around us.... explore the possibilities, just as kf told me... the meaning of life is to search the purpose of our life... our existence.. else, till then we'll nv realise it....

i supposed there are people who search their whole life n NV found it... sadly, some dun even realised the need...

anyway, i wanna say tks to deardear :D we're both learning rite?

Glad to survive...

just came back fr lesson at wilson's house.... had a great time.. but had a scary time on the way back..

it was raining super heavily n when i reached NUS.... i had to cut across the sports field...... nothing scary rite? Imagine having lightning striking once every 3 seconds (i'm not exaggerating) n each time the surrounding will be as bright as daytime....... I freaked out lor!! first time i see lightning so frequently!! so much lightning at the same time.... was deciding whether to cut across the field or not.. the moment i stepped out of the sheltered linkway from the bus stop, the lightning flashed across the sky.... scared me.... wanted to walk to soc then to ext A but it's too ma fan.... so i decided to brave thru the field... super scary lor!! :( so i decided keep to the walkway along the field so that at least the lamp post is taller than me..... felt so alone...

finally safe in my room le....

wonder how come so much lightning??? it's amazing man........

Quiz over!

just came back fr my finance quiz... screwed it up.. misread 2 qns... then got a few dunno answer.. no time to think it true... so it's gonna flop... sighhh nvm la.. it's within expectation..... wat to do? :P

but at the minimum... i got a lot more things clarified during last nite's revision... so... not tt bad la... ease my finals revision a bit bit

today it the deadlines for the reports... hope all's well.. i think so ba... but i'm really not good at analysis kind of essays.... apparently.. i'm the only one in the group giving keith prob with my portion :( tried to summarise it to cut down on the word count.. but in the end.. wat happens? i screwed up the content.. n confused the reader... sighhh it's like when u read.. u read from what's on ur mind... n not what ur eyes sees... so the reader with no prior knowledge to what i'm talking abt will have absolute idea.... sighhh wat was i thinking? should have read thru it again b4 passing the work to him :(

seems like my brain's pretty malfunctioning lately..... not in the rite state of mind....... well... nvm.... will be ok once 3214 ends... the peak is nearing..

well... just now went to central lib with shuhui, yiting, edith n wai to get the Z-chen concert tixs! :D hahha.... didn't take much time... queue for a while only! :P happy happy... it's my post 3214 activty.. coz it's the day after 3214 deadline..... hhaaa

i also have a few activities after 3214 deadline... hmmmm i will be working on the sat after 3214 submission... haha relac... only a for 4 hrs... super easy one.. haha with BIzLink again :P
On top of that.. i need to get a haircut!! my fringe is super long!! :( it's pretty irritating lor.... n i need to get a new wallet... sighhh dunno can find something i like or not.. :( this BUM wallet died on me... :( so i officially can shop for wallet already... haa.. but i really liked this wallet a lot... hmm maybe go JB n buy back bum wallet again.. haha....
how it died? the adjacent side of the card holder 'burst' open...... so sad rite....

tt's abt all.. gg to catch a wink b4 my lect....

old times

suddenly got nonchalent.... actually it started on sunday nite...

i miss my JC days
i miss the days we slogged productions together
i miss the days we cry together
i miss out circle of trust gatherings
i miss our 'drinking' sessions
i miss the days we curse at our teachers
i miss my simple life back then
i miss the interpretation of love at that point of time
i miss the way love was so much sweeter n simpler

i dun like the adult-working way of love... i really dun... $ cannot replace for a lot of things

i really dun fancy adulthood huh...

a little distraction.. true?

Your Seduction Style: Prized Object

The seduction game you play is tried, true, and still effective: hard to get. You know that the best seducers turn the tables - and get their crush to seduce them. The one running has the power, and you're a challenge that is worth the chase. You are a master of enticing and pulling back. Giving a little and taking some away. You are controlled enough to know rewards come after a long seduction dance. Even though you want to call, email, or say "I love you" first - you don't! You're style is the perfect mix of hot and cold - so much so that you have many suitors. Think Holly Golightly from Breakfast at Tiffany's ... or any of those creepy guys from the Bachelor. You're skilled at inspiring a chase. The real test is picking the person to slow down for.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

calm

emotionally much more calm today... after less intensive monday.... had a bit bit more rest...

a lot of thoughts floating in my mind... but i have no wish to confront them and i have no time to do so too... with so much to cope

do i let go of things too easily? i seriously have no idea at all... maybe i'm to used to doing it... it appears to be sa3 tuo1... but it's just my form of running away....

running away always seems to be the easier choice then confronting, then facing... especially if it's hard to resolve, or have no wish to resolve.

no strength

Did u ever find living a chore? what is the purpose of life?
i need some guidance
pls god, give me strength... i can't rely on anyone... not even myself
can anyone pls tell me y am i in this world?

how time flies

gosh.... next week is the deadline for 3214 n 3253 reports.... as well my my fianace quiz... (all on thurs...)

so fast my 5th sem is ending le... which means i'm really gonna grad real soon!! n i've yet to decide what i wanna work as?! i feel so lost.... i mean i've considered such issues before.. but then... again.. all the schoolwork keeping me busy has made me push back these thoughts... n now... i gotta face it real soon.... can someone show me the way?!! :(

I had enuff!!!

Why some people are just so bei dong?!!!! it's not as if i got scream at them for voicing out wat... y dun they just voice out?! told them that everyone is preoccupied with their own work... anything wrong just voice out or the whole group will die together.. dun they get it!!!! is it that hard to voice out? is it that hard to ASK?! already them need to know anything... just ASK! y make urself so miserable?! i know it's not easy.. so told u to ASK.... then u rather get urself stuck n not ask... wat the shit??! i was stuck in a dead lock for weeks.... but i managed to progress... by how? ASKING PEOPLE LA! talking to people help... n it's not as though the people in the group are not helpful or they'll bite! :( if iNV ASKED... i would be still stuck in my situation lor! :( pissed!

just some ranting...
~vomit blood~

BOring life?? or not?

It's currently 2.45am n i'm just finished a portion of my part for the proj.... so sianz.... still gotta continue to slog for another 1 more month... hang on there!
Regarding my blog title... haha i doubt that is the case... coz I GOT NO LIFE TO speak of! Can't imagine how happy i would be after this sem sia!!

Well well... despite the busy schedule.. i refuse to compromise my interest for schoolwork! will be performing with the voices people at munchie monkey this fri!! hope all will be fine... :D it's our very first session at munchie monkey oh! heee =D it wasn't supposed be my turn (or rather my group) but i also dunno how... then kena roped in... think coz too last min le la.... but my focus is more on doing a good job out of it!! :D must do well!!!

spent the entire day coding at national lib.. but at least i managed to progress a lot more than the past week.. i suppose talking to people abt the prob does help with ur own train of thoughts!
Must ENDURE!!!!!

hee i sighed up for the NKF medical check up le... it's abt time le.. coz i rem my yearly checkup is usually near my birthday that period of time. :P hee hee i also offically decided to learn driving le... will start planning after exams! :D

oh yar~ recently 'played' with my bro-in-law's birthday present.. an osim weighing machine... can take the value of the weight as well as ur percentage of fats n water in your body.. Cool right?! haha weight remains at 47.8kg (same as tt day i weighed at YIH... so YIH weighing scale is accurate!! ) my fat content is 12.8%... which is too thin (according to the osim handbook)... but i don't feel that way.. i still feel fat!! :( n water content is 60% which is on the high side of a female adult.... hmmm which is a good thing.. coz i always feel i don't drink enuff water..

okay.. i lor sor until 3am le la... gg to sleep lo... been sleeping after 2am for this sem...... my health is gonna suffer! :(

Happy Belated(since past 12mn le) Birthday to my Mummy! :D so sad that we didn't get to celebrate for her but nvm... looking forward to the arrival of my baby nephew! :D

Energized? or not? :P

hahah i'm not as fast as tracy... :P haha only blogged after almost a day after the fun! :D
Just wanna let u peeps know tt i enjoyed myself a whole lot last nite!! :D hahah u peeps make great company... just kinda sad tt jan n mel gotta leave earlier... :( n the 2 LC guys..... they're loser man! :P we must go another time ya!! think i'm being knocked out coz i'm sleepy... n not the alcohol lo... muahaha~

haha.... meanwhile i made a discovery y last nite i felt tt the drinks were no kick... haha... realised it's the result of dardar's training which increased my tolerance level... haha good n bad la... wun get drunk tt easily... but also need to drink more to get high... haha but yesterday i really drank a lot more then usual.... n i really felt nothing!..... hhaaaa

meanwhile i gotta 100% put myself into schoolwork le!! 1 more month left to pia!! :D u gals must also jia you oh!! look forward to after exams n enjoy the LAST school hols we're gonna get..... haha (feel kinda sad sia...)

Jia you!! :D

Been busy...

Been really busy with schoolwork lately.... my proj progress has slowed a whole lot.... sad sia...!

Haha i'm supposed to be venting my frustration here... but at this point of time, all the emotions subsided le... maybe becoz i'm not the ones involved...
okay the story goes like this, my good pal from pri school, A, suddenly messaged me thru friendster if i know another ger, B. n i happened to know so i told her i know.... then the complicated begins... A's bf,C, is 'apparently' infatuated with B... so she wanted me to help check if B likes C or not... if she doesn't... please help reject C so tt he can stop his infatuation.... but apparently... this guy knows what he wants lo... he wants to go after B but scared if things dun go well... so he keep A hanging there.... knowing tt she'll be there for him.... SO.... the hell begins.... since i'm the one hearing from both sides (A and B).... i know that C is a BIG FAT LIAR.. he's a JERK! keep telling lies n distorting the facts... come on la... be a guy... dun like A.. just tell her la... y say that B is "making advances" to him!! *slap him!!* at the same time... ruining B's reputation... what kind of a guy is he?!!!!!! so Er Xin! Somemore i know tt A gave everything she could to C..... but did C appreciate?! NO! he doesn't... he's just a SELFISH PIG! so much for saying he tried to give A what she want's but she don't appreciate..... whatever C does can NEVER MAKE UP TO THE DAMAGE N HURT HE GAVE HER! :(

ok..... the morale of the story... must learn to let go when there's a need... no matter how painful it is.....
The difference between guys n gers... if gers know tt the guy is not for her... she'll let go.. although painful but at least it's a clean break. as for guys? dun like the ger anymore still lead her on..... come on guys.... ger's time is precious k? dun waste their time!!!
And you know what... guy's are such zi zuo duo qing creatures... they like this ger... whatever the ger does... they will yi xiang qing yuan n think the ger doing things for them.... wat the.... GUYS?! can they dun read so much?? pls keep things pure n simple!

Hope the episode has finally ended...... n she can move on....

later most prob will go dblO with koko, tracy, jan n dave.... i really need to unwind.....

super sleepy.. :P i'll go catch a nap... :P

Take a break

Did these while taking a break :P

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. You tend to take more than give in relationships. You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently. Your friends tend to be a as quirky as you are - which is saying a lot! You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

hmm how true u think it is? :P

hmmm some updates... had consultation on tues... well what i voiced out earlier has been proven true once again... sighhhh
very high inertia not to do coding haha.... cannot la.. but i keep feeling very tired!! :( my shoulders super painful! i need to good massage!

realised that tibs bus will display the bus-stop name on the screen! hmmmm hahah maybe i too long nv take bus le... but it's pretty helpful especially at night when all the buildings looked the same to u... muahaha

just now huili came over n we cooked some pasta... fucilli with tomato sauce... yummy yummy! hah super simple to cook... (just tt we stunt the can opener from the other kitchen :P) haha but i think i cooked too much fucilli le.. haha super full!!!!! it's been about 2.5 half after lunch n i still feel very full!! think can have dinner after 8pm le :P

** i welcome all my friends to pop by n cook lunch togetheer!! haha but tell me beforehand la.. then can prepare ingredients ma :D

so sad rite.. my only form of enjoyment... haha cook in hall... i wanna sing!!!!!

cleared!

yeah! :D cleared my finance midterm just now... hahah so happy!! no more mid term lo!! can fully concentrate on 3214 le... haha going home later... :P i miss my bed!! hahahaaa ok i do sound vv excited ya!

SUPER GIAN to go KTV!! any takers!! hahahaaa

recommend a song by fish leong's new song... nice! very sad though... but i really love it... i love the lyrics tooo :

可惜不是你

这一刻突然觉得好熟悉 像昨天今天同时在放映
我这句语气原来好像你 不就是我们爱过的证据

差一点骗了自己骗了你 爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气 但我无法完全交出自己

努力为你改变 却变不了预留的伏线
以为在你身边那也算永远 仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远 但闭上双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你陪我到最後 曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手 还能感受那温柔

那一段我们曾心贴着心 我想我更有权力关心你
可能你已走进别人风景 多希望也有星光的投影

努力为你改变 却变不了预留的伏线
以为在你身边那也算永远 仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远 但闭上双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你陪我到最後 曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手 还能感受那温柔

可惜不是你陪我到最後 曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手 还能感受那温柔
感谢那是你牵过我的手 还能温暖我胸口

a whole list of new songs i like!! :D hahhaa 暧昧 by yang cheng ling also vv nice.. n 路 by fish also... haha tt day copied a list of songs from huili.. muahahaa more songs to add in my collection!! i better backup them after this sem.. or my heart will break if i lost them all... heee!